Glum

did I disappoint you or let you down?
should i be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
sometimes its hard to believe you remeber me. sigh, the chaos is controlling my mind. dun understand this , dun understand this, i call you everyday, let you dun worry about me, let you feel secure and safe. when you got sick, i was getting more gloomy than you, said sugarplum, reminded you the timing of taking pills, the only thing i didnt do was to buy a ticket flying back. then accompany you everyday until you recover, can i do that? im asking myself . with all the things i have done, what did you reply? what should you reply? "i feel you was not sincere", fucked up, is there something wrong with me? i wander, and im glum. and also bother why you always make me feel sad before exams, would you please try to create a cozy condition for my tests. timeout, its time to listen this song, the lyrics may describe my mind at the moment:

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
Cause I saw the end before we'd begun
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
.......
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.